Took some vacation days...

Made it through Mom's birthday, with alot of help from my family and friends. Got to thank my crazy neighbors and my Bird and Turtle, Lady Di for the phone call, Hooker for the text, JJ for the email. We cleaned up the grave site added my present to Mom, then Kim and the girls sang Happy Birthday, sounded beautiful. Then I played some of Mom's favorite songs. We then ventured to the park to eat. Then we went to Sweetbriar to see Mom's best friend Peggy. Her and Mom share the same birthday. Peggy says it best, she always says there is only one Betty, one in a million and she is right. Mom was simply the best. We had a great visit with Peggy then we went to see Aunt Clara Belle and the girls. A tough day ended up being no so tough after all.

Friday went with Brandy, Judy, Bill Jess, Emily and Jimmy to move Jimmy into SIU-C. It was a really good day. Only a few tears were shed. I still can't believe that Jimmy is in college. Seems like yesterday when Brandy was bringing the little red head over to Mom's now he is a freshman in college. The sky is the limit for him, he is so talented.

Saturday was Loser's party. And I was sick. WTF! Took some drugs early then said no more, I treated it with a few Miller Lites. Kim had a good time, everyone did. I was a good day to be around family and friends and have a few, especially when your drinking from Captain Jeremy Morgan's private stock. WAHOO!!!!

Sunday bonded with my couch and some more drugs. No wasn't a hang over the cold/allergies kicked my ass.

Monday...Golf Time! Still felt a little sick, but was determined to go golfing with the birthday girl. We went to the goat ranch. Greens sucked. Played in and out of the sprinklers. Beer was sliding. Weather was fabulous. Great Day!

Tuesday did nothing, ran to Ivan's to get fencing for Kim and that was it. Vacation over work on Wednesday. That sucks.

Enjoy the picks and videos, It was a great couple days.

OH WAIT I FORGOT THE BEST NEWS OF ALL....

Grey's paperwork has all the T's crossed and the I's dotted. He has been a Morgan from day one, it is just all official now. Welcome to the family, Little Man!

Mom's Present

Message for Mom

Plaque on bench at Sweetbriar
Tribute to Mom, from the people at Sweetbriar

Note for Mom

Mamma,
Even though it is only a few minutes passed midnight, I am missing you so bad on this day or night. It’s your birthday and ever since August began I have been dreading this. I knew it would be so hard. Every day this month has been a struggle so far. Trying to keep busy. Even one day decided to switch our beds around. Did OK tearing up my room, especially after my Ipod played An Eagle When She Flies. I have over 6,000 songs on there and it is set to randomly play all songs. I was dusting the candles you gave me and yeah I was tearing up, but when that song started, I don’t know, it normally kills me to hear it but this time it gave me a peaceful feeling. So thanks for still watching out for me. But when I started on breaking down your bed I had to call in the cavalry. Kim and Jada came over to help me. We got it done, thank God for Jada Bird and her smile. She smiles so much when she sees the picture of you and her which ended up being the last picture I took of you, just a few days before you got sick. I switched our beds around and that was about it. Still can’t do much else when I go into your room. Other than sitting in there and thinking and remembering, but I do that throughout my house. I am so grateful that you moved in with me. Yeah we had ups and downs, and I regret the downs. I hope that you knew how much you meant to me, no matter how damn hard headed I was and yeah I still am. I owe everything I have to you and Dad. You were the best and helped me so much. I am heading up to the cemetery today, yeah I have taken a few vacation days, knew I wouldn’t be much good to anybody today. Going to make sure your and Dad’s gravesite looks good. Taking the weedeater and all to get it cleaned up. I got the landscaping all done, just a few more things I want up there. So I will finish this conversation when I get up there. I love you and miss you. Thanks for everything. You are the BEST!!!!!

Happy Birthday Mom!
Love and Miss you like crazy!

Hey guys, check out this video of a great lady. The first song was played at Mom’s services and the first time I heard it way back when I thought of Mom.

Coming off of two great weekends

On July 20th Keith, Diane, Ivan and myself took a trip to see Aunt Edna. She is one amazing woman. She is my Dad's sister and in December she will be 90 years young. I so enjoy spending time with her. She misses my Mom so much. Her and Mom were more like sisters. She has so many memories and it is so great just to sit and listen to her. Although this visit she did mention a couple of times that she wonders why she is still here. We told her the Big Guy just wasn't ready for her yet and she had to be here to keep tabs on us Morgan Kids and attempt to keep us in line. Enjoy the pic's below.



Last Friday, I left for a trip up to see Kevin, Caryn and Grey. It was a long drive, and I am so happy that I had my Ipod cause I hate radio anymore. Arrived safe and sound and was ready to bond with my Great Nephew, Grey and oh yeah, Kevin and Caryn. Their house is awesome. They are like a block away from WIU. Grey is one handsome little man and yeah I am a biased aunt, but so what I call em like I see em and you can look at the pictures below and see that I am not lying.



Both weekends made me think alot of Mom, brought back many memories. Aunt Edna so loved Mom that she talks about her and calls me all the time to check up on me and the rest of the Morgan clan. And Grey was born 2 days before Mom died. One of the last conversations that I had with Mom was how happy we both were that Kevin and Caryn were getting a little one. I remember her saying that they were going to be great parents and it was about time. I know Herbie and Betty Mae are watching over that little guy and also Turtle and Anna Belle.

On the way up to Macomb, I saw a roadside stand selling sweet corn, as soon as I saw it I was crying. Remembering how I would take Mom to get her tomatoes and she would always end up getting sweet corn. As soon as we got home she was shucking it and cooking it. She made us a meal of sweet corn. I would stuff myself then lay around complaining while picking corn out of my teeth. She would tell me to cut it off the cob like she does, but I never would, too lazy I guess. Going to have to buy me some corn and have a sweet corn meal again.

Stay Tuned....More pics are coming.

I wanted to send out a big

THANK YOU

to Kevin, Caryn and Grey

I had a great time this weekend.

Here is one of the pictures of my little buddy Grey

also known as the cutest little boy in the whole world!!!!!!!!!
More pics will follow. See I wasn't lying he is the cutest little boy in the world!

Given a choice and you don't choose your kid...WTF!

All my posts lately have been about how I can't believe how stupid and selfish people are, well I have another one of those I can't believe...

Before I start I would like to say this is all hear say...but I know the main thing is she didn't choose her kid.

Let say you have a job in retail and you are around a lot of money. Then throw in that you have a useless boyfriend, I say useless cause she choose him over her kid. So you have this plan you say the store was robbed only you or your boy friend takes the money. Then you start the lying, it was a white guy that robbed the store. The PoPo get involved of course and you have to take a lie detector test and you fail. They got you. The PoPo tell you they will give you probation if you roll on the boy friend. Ummm. Let me see on one hand I have probation where I can be with my little girl and raise her myself, or I can keep quite for this man that I "love" and lose my little girl go to jail well HELL YEAH I see why she didn't choose her little girl. WHAT THE FUCK!!!! And guess what your so called boy friend probably already has his next victim, oh I mean girl friend all lined out.

And we wonder or at least I wonder why this world is so screwed...when you have a mother choose a low life son of a bitch over her little girl what do we expect.

What a few weeks I have had....

As I sit back and observe, so much crap has been going down and it is the kind that I just can’t believe how stupid, ignorant, uncaring and selfish people can be.

First…people need to learn to let people grieve and come to terms with their loss, before piling more shit on their plate. Everyone handles grief in their own way and time and when it is someone close, there is no time limit that says at such and such time you will be all better and ready to function like nothing happened. And absolutely never should someone think that it is OK to request to be given something that belonged to the loved one. The immediate family in time may or may not pass on personal items, but it is their choice whether to give or not.

Second…love the deadbeat parents that think they know best for the child when they only see them over the summer, or only on those special occasions like a birthdays. Especially love the deadbeats that think that 50 bucks a week is enough for a child. Does that even feed a kid for a week now? I don’t think so. You know if they had custody they would be bitching about only getting 50 bucks a week when they are spending $$$ on food, $$$ on clothes, $$$ on school, $$$ the miscellaneous day to day items.

Third…what about the person that thinks they know what is best for someone else’s child when all they are doing is stirring up more shit. I will be the first one to admit that I have said if that was my kid, I would do this or that, well guess what I don’t have any kids so I don’t have a clue. Yes, I love kids but am so glad that I don’t have any. Too much responsibility and where is the instruction manual for them? As I explain to everyone, with my nieces and nephews, I loved them when they were little, then when they reached that pre-teen and teen age years, BOOM OMG what happen to those precious little kids, then late teens WOW they are grown up and I can actually talk to them again.

Fourth…and what about the all about me person, there are way too many of these lurking around. When you have kids, it is not all about you any more, your life ends and you focus on your kids. Then there are the ones that are all about the material things and who cares who they have to F*@# over in order to get what they want. These are the people that have the motto of Use People and Love Things, when us normal people Love People and Use Things! (Thanks for the quote, Hooker!)

Fifth…there are good people out there, if you look closely. You know like the ones that read your blog then send you a comment or email just to let you know they understand and are there for you. (Thanks, Angie, Teresa, Rett and G [Know exactly what you’re saying, I am blessed.]) Then there are the ones that are right around the corner, who give you as much shit as you give them. You know they yell across to call you a HO or even the best they bring over the little ones and let me bond with my little neighbors or I invade their territory just to see the EYES and steal kisses and hugs. (Thanks, Loser, Scrappy, Bird and Turtle!) And lastly my new support line…Text Messages. It is amazing how so few words can put a smile on your face. Or is it a confused look trying to decipher the message cause so many letters are missing…IDK! (Thanks you know who you are, did I mention you earlier, do you have any pit passes?!?)

Lastly…the Lockart reunion was on the 6th. Absolutely was hating going up there just knowing Mom wasn’t going to be there. This was Mom’s side, her sisters and brothers and their families. It helped that Sharon, Ivan, and Chuck was there and Keith & Di would have been there too if he hadn’t spent the night in the ER. (He is doing much better now.) Also had Loser, Scrappy, Bird, Turtle, Mary, Megan, Bobbie, AJ, Marina, Max, Jeremy and Jason there so Betty Mae was very well represented. Did OK but when Aunt Carol and Aunt Clara Belle said they really miss Mom there, I maintained but was so close to losing it. Plus seeing our Morgan Reunion shirts was a hit with every one. So Mom, Dad, and Renee was there everywhere there was a blue shirt.

So I thought I was done but I want to let you all know that this next generation of Morgan Girls are so tough. They may be princesses but they are not prissy little girls. Marina caught her shirt on fire by a sparkler. Scary at the time but she is fine. Megan lost a fight with a teeter-totter, but that didn’t stop her from helping Max with the dam.

Enjoy the pictures from the Lockart Reunion.

The Next Generation of Morgan Girls...no prissiness here!

Megan's Lip...you should have seen the teeter-totter!
Marina's Hip...always hold sparklers out in front.

Aunt Erma, Aunt Norma and Aunt Clara Belle

The Dam Builders...water was knee deep when I left

My Turtle...She loves when I tell her secrets about her Mom :)

My Bird...She loves the secrets about Loser and Scrappy :)