After a hell week...

Mom is still in the hospital, but it sounds like the doctor is letting her out on Friday. She sounded better today, after a rough day yesterday and a horrible last week. Pneumonia sucks!

In driving back and forth to Van to see Mom last week and having 50 million things running through my psycho head, I listened to my husband, Tim McGraw's new CD and it is awesome. One song in particular I wish I could actually do what the song says...Let It Go.

I’ve been caught sideways out here on the crossroads
Trying to buy back the pieces I lost of my soul
It’s hard when the devil won’t get off your back
It’s like carrying around the past in a hundred pound sack

Today I’m gonna keep on walking
I’m gonna hold my head up high
I’m gonna leave it all behind
Today I’m gonna stand out in the rain
Let it wash it all away
Yeah wash it all away
I’m gonna let it go Oh yeah
I’m gonna let it go Oh yeah

Skeletons and Ghosts are hiding in the shadows
Threatening me with all the things that they know
Choices and mistakes, they all know my name
But I’m through holding in and holding onto all that pain

Today I’m gonna keep on walking
I’m gonna hold my head up high
I’m gonna leave it all behind
Today I’m gonna stand out in the rain
Let it wash it all away
Yeah wash it all away
I’m gonna let it go Oh yeah
I’m gonna let it go Oh yeah

I know I know I know
I’ve been forgiven
I know I know I know
I’m gonna start living

Today I’m gonna keep on walking
I’m gonna hold my head up high
I’m gonna leave it all behind
Today I’m gonna stand out in the rain
Let it wash it all away
Yeah wash it all away
I’m gonna let it go Oh yeah
I’m gonna let it go Oh yeah

Who knows maybe one of these days, I will be able to let it all go...Red Rover over and out!

In Loving Memory of Larry Crowder

Larry D. Crowder

When I come to the end of the day,

And the sun has set for me.

I want no rites in a gloom-filled room.

Why cry for a soul set free?

Miss me a little, but not too long,

And not with you head bowed low.

Remember the love we once shared

Miss me, but let me go.

For this is a journey we all must take,

And each must go alone.

It's all part of the maker's plan,

A step on the road to home.

When you are lonely and sick at heart

Go to the friends we know.

And bury your sorrows in doing good deeds

Miss me, but let me go.

Hey Dad, look what I found in your back yard

I know my Dad would have been smiling from ear to ear, if he would have walked out in his back yard and found what I found today. It made my heart smile, cause I remembered all the times I went mushroom hunting with my Dad. This time I didn't have to worry about snakes. I did probably run over some with the mower before I seen them. But from the pictures you can see even losing a few I still ended up with a nice mess. What is really funny is that I don't eat them, I always gave them to Mom and Dad. Since Mom is an hour plus away, I had to give them to someone who I knew would enjoy them, Bill & Judy. They couldn't believe that I found them in Mom and Dad's back yard.

Dad, I miss you like crazy, especially when something happens like today. I want to tell you how much I appreciated ALL the things we did, like mushroom hunting. You taught me so much.

DAD

You are the best.

I Love You!!!!