Thursday, January 04, 2007

Rewind & Start Over

Day 4 of 2007 and I want to restart this year. How can I get my new and improved attitude when nothing changes? I have to start buying Lotto tickets. Maybe I will win and then I can buy me an island in the Bahamas, but with my luck Hurricane Whatever would wipe it out.

Deep Breath...

Deep Breath....

OK, I need a Miller Lite or 2 or more then lets start again...

2007 WILL BE BETTER...WHY...BECAUSE I SAID SO!!!!!!!

Monday, January 01, 2007

Happy New Year

To all my family & friends...

Here is to 2007

May our troubles be less
And blessings be more
And nothing but happiness
Comes through our doors!


To be safe always ask...
Who is it?


Thursday, December 28, 2006

What Christmas is all about

Yes...I was a very, very, very bad girl!!

AJ, Ryan, Mercedez & Hunter

David, Cierra, Kenny, Loser & Jada

Shayne, Marina & Max

Lucy, Mom & Rett

Emily & Mom

Mom & Santa
She says she was a very good girl this year, yeah right

Hang on to the memories......


Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Families amaze me

I am amazed how some family members can treat others like shit and not blink an eye. Or come right out and lie to your face. It is no secret how messed up my family is but when something bad happens we tend to always show up and represent no matter what. We make the calls and make sure everyone knows what the hell is going on. I know what Uncle Paul meant to me and I know what he meant to my siblings and that is why we made sure everyone knew what and when and where. I asked a cousin specifically if another cousin (her sister) knew and she looked me in the eyes and said yes. Only for me to find out that she didn't know. I guess I should have been more specific when I asked the question, but I thought she understood what I was talking about. I didn't mean did she know Uncle Paul passed away, I meant that and did she know when the arrangements were. That is me, thinking that others think the way I do and put shit away in a family time of crisis. Just like us I know that it would have meant the world to her to be able to say good bye to Uncle Paul, but her so called siblings and mother, made sure that that didn't happen. One thing I do know is that Uncle Paul seen first hand how this family acts and he couldn't believe it. So with everything these days, I have to say one of these days they will get paid back, I may not see it, but it will happen and all I can say is you deserve whatever comes your way.

Friday, December 08, 2006

Uncle Paul...One of a Kind

In Loving Memory
Paul Lockart

I was fortunate enough to live with Uncle Paul for the 2 years I went to college. He was one of a kind. Every morning it was Briant and Katie and me and Uncle Paul. I always cherished the mornings, because we would talk about current happenings or we could talk about nothing at all. No matter what I left for school with a smile on my face. I really enjoyed listening to the stories of back in the day. Especially when he would talk about what him, Uncle Dale and Uncle Vance did growing up. Then there was his stories when he was a Marine. I loved when him and Dad would bicker about which was better the Marines or the Navy. The stories he remembered when we went to Arkansas. Thank God for the memories and I do have many. I love you Uncle Paul and you will be forever in my heart.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Smacked again

Just when I try to change my attitude, I get hit head on. I don't know how I can change my attitude when I got psycho dick heads fucking with me. I think I will be spending a lot of time at home. Then the only psycho I have to deal with is me, myself and I. This is not a good time for me to deal with this shit. I am doing good to maintain day to day, with everything that has changed. Some days are worse than others, but it is getting better. Last night was a kick in the teeth that I didn't need. It happened and can't change it. I have to deal with it and get over it and do everything in my power that I don't put myself in that predicament again.

Test after test after test...when will they end and when will things get back to normal????

What it is...is what it will be!!!!!

What it is...is what it will be!!!!!
Loyal Friends are few and far between!