I have tried a couple times to get this typed out but just couldn’t do it until now. I took a vacation day last Friday to make a trip up to the cemetery. The trip up there I kept thinking about a year ago when I was sitting by Mom’s bedside and knowing. I left her room at around 12:30 that night and left Keith and Diane with her. The next morning when the phone rang I knew her suffering was over. I got to the cemetery and it was snowing and freezing. I got out and added my Christmas flowers to the vases. Then added the Christmas flower vines to the hooks. My hands were not working in this wind and cold. All the time I was having my conversations with Mom and Dad. Then I ran the final vine over both hooks, made sure I tied everything down. Then I went to my truck to play some music for Mom and Dad. It was cloudy, windy and cold so I needed the heat in the truck. The first song I played was “An eagle when she flies” for Mom. I am sitting in my truck looking at Mom and Dad’s grave, crying my eyes out and then the sun shines for a moment through the clouds. The angle of the sun and hooks I have on the graves forms a heart shadow. OK so call me crazy but that is what happened. I told Mom I got the message. And yes it happened when I played “Daddy’s hands” for Dad and I told him I got the message too. It was cloudy and snowing when I got there and then the freezing wind blew the clouds away and when I left the sun was shining. Yeah I was still crying but I was smiling too from the messages that I got. As I am driving away there was my camera right beside me so why didn’t I take a picture. Actually I don’t need a picture cause it will be with me forever, just like the doves on my roof. And the last song for them was “Because you loved me”, the lyrics say it the all.
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am because you loved me
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